All my life’s been a meditation
Call thought through each situation
Elation, at the end of these lessons?
Not if I nod off like head weighted
To be dread later, always later
Don’t burrow now when you can dig later
A master debater of staying changes
Credit saving where credit is due
My head enslaved me and made me too
Each altercation I took in patience
Growing, shedding, new adaptations
Kicked and spat on with each frustration
Messed up, chewed up, invalidated
I kept on keeping on like a first aid kit
Bandaging rejections from she don’t see me
Lately I feel like one’s too many
Fall back on the furrow of down facing
This lovely luck, well fuck you lady!
To learn how head holds higher and truer
Not edit you or me or any of this manure
So I can station my self front all late sayers
“You’re fortunate is all”
KEEP your envy
I’m sorry not sorry!
I earned this you crazies.
Not debited to reasons of raison d’être
If you’ve never dived beyond the adjacent
You cannot know how great pain dove
At least do this or you’re at best just basic
But once you know it, there’s no escaping
You have to keep pacing, undoing, erasing
Until all that’s left screams elevation
From the pain you worked on in your displacement