Evaporate

I am simply searching

For the door to end all walls

Where grief isn’t the only goddess

Who will answer my call

My hope is less than ought to be

As the rainfall inches on

It’s all you or I ever was

It’s all I can do to hang on

This one way leaking roof

Won’t let me out

Even if I evaporate

It makes me stay about

So ankle deep I feel it

Calmly rising higher

The door still mocks me

Like a songbird on a wire

 

Saint Valentine’s Day

Sexual tension yet I’m mistaken

The consensual friendliness

Muddles the message

As I crane my neck

To decipher the gestures

I’m no braniac

In these contextual sessions

How should I have acted

As now I’m redacted

Prematurely reactive

Or passively inactive

Like a dozen geraniums

Yet twice as fragrant

This flagrant reminder

Is a days worth of anger

Resentment in my cranium

Dense dual desperations

Hasten my hesitations

I stumble with regret

In these cesspool lessons

This Disney Princess climate

Is producing more resignation

To require you’re a Prince Charming

Tall, white, rich, domineering

That’s not my genetic engineering

No matter if I’m unharming

Perfectly decent

I’m still wading in rude lazy dating

My flavour may seem of salt and bitter

But its these ghosts that linger

Not an entitled designation

This aloneness of loneliness

The single uncoupling

Your bests say to just be you

Convinced your value will be seen

But who and when

I question in impatience

This love has latent latency

So make yourself that seer

So say the internal whispers

There’s no guarantee either

 

 

Lunacy

There are some wings that cannot grow

In the same space that once spanned

There are those wounds that will not heal

Those wounds are often all I am

Even as moons have shown time has passed

There are some things that never can

Am I more than what I reflect each night

Holding less light than my heart demands

Even if you looked more closely

What could you fully understand

Saying farewell to all you loved towards

The nightly feel of empty hands

There are some lives we will never live

Not even if I am a good man

There are some loves that just end

Taking with them our hopeful plans